After the Astronomical Union, 2006 – Samantha Fain

After the International Astronomical Union, 2006

My mother chops the rot out of tomatoes
and tells me I am beautiful as I am.

On the news, scientists demote Pluto
from the planets: not giant enough. Not heavy enough

to demolish the debris that cross her orbit.
A shame, my mother says. She cooks

while I imagine tomatoes with bones:
orange ones heartbeatless, red ones

that howl I am scared, sunspots
that bleed black from her raging blade.

I am beautiful only in light that eclipses my face
so you cannot see my craters.

My mother chops the rot out of tomatoes and I orbit.
She cooks. Scientists erode Pluto with math and size.

I belt my stomach shut to make an asteroid.
Enough. Who preserves the fat and the small?

Who lets us live? My mother chops debris
out of tomatoes. I moon around her, too heavy.

I howl I am scared. My mother chops.
Demolishes. Spirals. Howls.

I am scared of what is enough.

 

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Samantha Fain is a writer from Connersville, Indiana. She is an undergraduate student studying psychology and creative writing at Franklin College. Her work has previously appeared in The Indianapolis Review.

Read ‘I Cry at Movies now’ also by Samantha Fain, here.

 

 

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